mothers....

first i should mention that my mother and i have no relationship at all!!!!

I believe motherhood is a choice, not a requirement just because you are female.

As a female myself i have that choice...for the longest time i had no desire to have children, now after meeting and marring the love of my life i realize that yes i do want a child, yes a child not plural....i would love to adopted if everything fits of course!! As of right now i am not at a point where i feel i would be the mother i hope to be.....i have too much to do not that all mothers dont but i want at this point to deicate myself to my husband and horses!!!

Here is what brought all this about....

i go by my mother's store which, they are moving at this moment, to be supportive (i was raise in a guilt stricken hell where everything you did wrong was held over ones head till the end of time, hence the reason that all though i have no want to be around her at all i still feel the need to check on her every once in a while and/or even have a relationship with her). i have my niece with me actually my cousins little girl but my niece because tressa is like a sister not a cousin, any way...earlier this morning, layla had wrote on something she wasnt suppose to when she was at the store with her mom...karen that would be my mother took layla to the back and began lecturing her on how she wasnt allowed to write on things. fine right? no!!!!
karen is very harsh and the best of guilt trip givers...

my grandmother told me what had happen with layla and completely blew it out of portion, i go back to where karen had seclude herself and layla to ease drop and if need be defend her, mine you layla is a very lite hearted 6 yo and very well behaved!!! i didnt like what i was hearing and step in the room...upon entry was told they were talking by karen, i asked karen to try and make the talk fit the crime...at this time i was told to leave, seeing how layla was with me i asked layla to come with me telling karen layla would not write on anything else and i left.

side note i do think that if you have your child some where other than home they should follow the rules of the place, how else will they understand later that different place have different rules and it is mannerly to follow the rules of where ever they are.

of course i call tressa first thing to tell her, only to find out that layla had all ready been talk to about it by tressa and had been scolded by my grandmother so harshly that she cried.

seriously how much punishment and talking to does a 6 yo need for something she has never done wrong before and at one time was even given the cards she was writing on by karen to draw on...layla did this thinking that it was ok because she was given old cards without explanation of what they were and why she could draw on the old ones but not the new ones...

a prime example of someone with no motherly instincts.

children do not think like adults!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! teenagers do not think like adults!!!!!!!!!!!